pass through 2009....enter 2010....

this two days..ha...is the time to refresh what i had done in year 2009. From Jan till Dec, ha..time pass through very fast.From internship till now in Uni life...the people i had meet..the incident those happened..appreciated! i had come through that..in 2009..thank god!
Whatever incidents happened regardless good or bad, those should be an experience for myself. hmm...some big decision i had make. Thinking back, quite relief with what i had make. Indeed, i always believe, when u lost something, sure u will gain back something in return...depend on oneself how u define the lost and gain.But, it true, these two hold the strong relationship.
However, some targeting plan still in downstream progress..need time to really involved in it. Give me some times, i think should be fine after finished my final year.
The overall progress in 2009 : i give myself 6/10
In coming year 2010..the downstream progress, need to continue...
the final year time table still allow me to take in some tuition class...this maybe will hold on after graduated.
hmm...come to the career, the food industries is huge...very wide, ha..some interesting fields come in my mind..hmm..need do some networking here..ha..
finally, come to the person. Guys, what really happen, will happen.ha..this time,i think, i more clear on that.
2010, hope, aim, targeting....is there.girl,keep move on....everything although seen like same, i think u will discover them.

are u ready?

girl, are u ready?
2day..really felt disappointed in myself..damn shit..yesterday revised till 2 am..but nothing help!! As i can't manage to bring out the point in 2day paper..this marketing paper was challenged! Tat's i can say. 2day, i been killed by this. When started doing the paper, all question were in BM.omg..shit, suddenly can't get familiar with them. My confidence drop to 20%. omg..what really damn was ..total is 100 mark. Objective was 55 and essay was 45. Within 2 hours, u should finished them. That's challenged. Objective question, i really crashed my head on it. Think and think..along the way, my confidence from 20% started to drop..19..15...10...5%...o..no...That's not mine..girl..wake up..i told myself..wake up..what are u doing here!! First time, i felt i had challenged. I had failed to be challenged. The feeling was up and down...When turned on the essay part, yes..the question was good. But, i only have 1 hour to get 45 mark. I don't want to just put in some point. The whole semester, i was studying this marketing ...i want it to be more compact and more point. At last, i failed to complete one of the question 15 mark gone. yes, i angry with myself, why ..why u can manage to do ...is not the mark, is the management. I really failed to manage it well..sad..
After exam, i quickly managed my damn feeling..preparing my things...for the Pahang journey. The cocoa bean..haiz..bad news i received. Since raining recently, i had to wait for the another week.
By the way, my phone line been interrupted..what the heal..i just forgot to pay..and delay for few days..why u close my line. k..maybe is my mistake. But after i done the payment, why i need to wait for so long to restore back my line. Maxis..u really damn..i know, is yr principal ..but u should think..to upgrade yr service too...
Lastly, meet my etiqa's friends. From the conversation and presentation, i really din get much ready..girl..disappointed .You should be ready in every time..

2day, really a experience for me..girl, be ready at every time . In life, we want see the content, i don want the surface..k...please bear in mind. Don't repeat it again...whatever things had been done, can't changed. For the future, please.girl....gambateh!!

My birthday...

last saturday till monday..sweet..ha..quite much of celebration! actually, i din expect the sunday's celebration.Thank guys, miss and love u all..
The saturday nite..really an impress and sweet memory.I had never seen this 'drama' in live. That's reality. That night at station 1, was the birthday of me and another girl whom side beside us . Hmm..the girl ,i think ard age 26 old. That nite, her boyfriend purposed her to marriage him.o..that screen..really unexpected. The girl started to cry when the guy announced in front of the public. omg! brave man..proud of u..tat really not an easy job!! Really..ha..i am thinking , if the girl disagreed with him..how??how sure he was?? a quite touching ending...ha..anyway, still remember chuan keat said: so easy to get the thing done!! ha..not easy to get to the stage of marriage from couple. Many uncertaincy occur between every process..ha..is not easy ..really wish u both..happy beloved !!
That nite, ha..actually quite nice talked with the geng. From that, the distance become more closer and get to know someone. As from the pass, i really don't have much idea about u..ha..but from tat night, many story had been heard..nice.
The sunday's celebration, ting..thank you for that ya. Really sweet and happy when sawing all of the member came and celebrated with me..although was just a dinner. Really appreciated..and i liked the picture u dedicated for me..thank ah..ting! Everyone had changed for the better ..ha..this relationship sure bring us tightly..till the end..haha..

The monday's celebration, ha..quite nice. Since few months din see him.That nite, meet him again. The environment was comfortable and peaceful. That's the environment i wish to have. Be natural.Thank for the dinner, appreciated ! actaully, i din expect u will know and remember my birthday. I was shocked when receiving your sms. ha..anyway, a comfortable date with u..thank you!

All the best for myself..and the coming future. Strive for that!!Gambateh :)

damn nice...

给你

不要把我推开
当坚持像无赖
当钻石也变尘埃
我信 你在
唯有寂寞慷慨
骨牌倒了下来
想安慰找不到对白
那空白
可是我 相信爱
我信异想才有日会天开

可是爱 我相信爱

found smthing..

2day finish my presentation..finally...
hmm..the whole process quite enjoying..but something is there, felt that can do it better .anyway, after the presentation.i realised my literature review is too far away, hmm..thinking that..finally,yes,quite agree with the examiner.Anyway, i found something..ha.the examiner quite a nice and friendly guy.In future, ha..i will search for him..waka..he is expert in microbe too..hmm..good.
So..now, i had to rearrange my scope.Have to make sure don be too wide.
Now, in hand still got projects to settle.Have to make it clear..this week gonna be a hectic week also.
plus my tuition class..omg..really need to arrange wisely.
Girl, only this week..k..is ok d..u can..every time remind myself with this ...ha...if not, will go crazy.
The main task, is prepare my marketing exam in tuesday.hmm..ya..
gambateh ..

nice song..

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己
突然好想你
你会在哪里

过的快乐或委屈
突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影

meaningfulll.....

人生偶有坎坷，不可能风平浪静。
可能你的父母为你铺设好了大道，水到渠成。可是有一天水可能改道。你要站得高才能看到。
穷途末路不要紧，有信念也会走出一条“水路”。
你心爱的人也许和你有距离，但是一步一步你还是能够触及到达。

幸苦的制造浪漫，或许并不讨好。



努力了，相爱只是时间问题。



也许向往自由的你，会让他人受到伤害。(飞走了，它就淹死了)



猎艳并不是四处张望，你要用心去找。



你或许和周围的人不一样，别人为了生活忙碌，你却想着怎么飞走


低调的融入周遭事物，其实也会很美好




是不是娴雅之余一杯咖啡也是种人生目标了





伤了不表示你从此不能再飞



不同的窗口有不同的风景

clone ..need to clone...

A hectic sem ...
Recently, damn busy with the staffs works.4 projects in hand.One is long term, and others are short term.Everyday , every time, every minute...try focusing on the staffs works..
Last previous years, honestly, i couldn't feel the 'hectic' time..ha...but now, yes, i can feel it. Now, i got a strong wish, no wonder who can help me...i need another clone of me..yei jin..haha..
Focusing on the annual report of Yeo's Company from 2004-2008, really interesting. However, it need time to go through the annual report. Suddenly , me subjected to auditor..ahha...like a finance analyst. The corporate governance index and the finance reporting really kill me..ha..
Second, focusing on the thesis research..this also killing me...the argument is there :why u choose the Lactobacillus plantarum from cocoa bean itself..why why..why don find others sources?ya , i know there is the boundary but i will try to find some evidence.This time again..haiz..
Third, is the industry analysis..this really damn my head. I had no direction on how to start..omg..first time no direction.I don't want this feeling..this also require me to find out the sources...this is the third damn challenging.
Fourth , is the marketing analysis...marketing again..fortunately, the direction is there. At least have the direction. I will feel insecure if the direction gone..no..no..please.ha..
Lastly, tonight, i can't do much as got gathering same as the following day. haiz..
No point..no choice, have to burn the midnight oil..
This semester, i found that my commitment toward my own stuffs works gradually high compare to previous years. Maybe, there are no others things to grab my attention. ha..don't know..maybe there are..there will happen...haha..
anyway, now only these 4 projects can grab my mind..have to also..
Clone ...clone..need to clone another me..

影响力!!

每次想把思绪有文字表达时,我都尝试用英文….今天,哈..就改变一下…..

今早上完课,在回的路途中, 谈到一些话题顿时 让我有些感触。加上看了范逸臣VS 方大同的报道后，脑海里涌现更多的思绪。

不管在哪个行业，我想也是一样。虽然 环境不一同，里头的精髓是值得学习的。

当你没办法在一个跑道上继续战斗下去的时候，并不意味着你要放弃，人生并不是非黑即白，换个跑道再试试，关键是有过得失之后，你要重新把自己看清，以学习的的姿态去进行各种尝试，慢慢寻找最适合自己的方向。

攒！是的，这是我一直以来鞭策自己的精髓。

我们身边的人或物都一直不断的在影响我们。今天不时我影响你 ；就是你影响我。环境造就了影响力。别小看这力量……….

不管在事业，人生方向，感情都存有这影响力。它的适合与发展度，是否你也跟它一起成长？

加油！鞭策自己造就 影响力。

o..symptom to fall sick ...??

last wednesday, went to Cheras Pasar Malam. Although said i am a K.l person, honestly, i haven't go there before. This was the first time. There really a ''long'' pasar malam. ha..that nite, something interesting was i had try what so called, ''chao tao fu''...from far, u can smell it..OMG!hhaa..some of them already tried before, suddenly the courage come.Nvm, try it..ha..someone said have to be dare...hmm..quite nice actually ..but just doubt..why this fermentation tao fu ...the smell so ''complicated''..waka..others fermentation food...taste nice..why this tao fu..omg!.ha..when put inside the mouth...the taste mixed with the chili source..the smelly taste reduce.ha..my conclusion toward this..was 50 -50. At least, i had tried.That's the point.
Sometimes , in life , if u dare not to try..u are dare to out..ha..Unfortunately, this trouble my throat.The next day, horrible things came..my throat, my sound...changes..changes to be romantic..waka...selsema and headache torture me..mucilage start dropping from my nose without my control...omg!..see this is the things ...side effect when dare to try..ha...
anyway, it really torturing..till today, the condition is under control..thank god!hee...just thinking why my immune system so weak ?er..have to take care about this...plus everytime burn the midnight oil..my liver can sustain ?hha..o..no...have to find something which is full of antioxidants to protect my liver..if not..

life still on...hee..gambateh...''chao tao fu'' ..i will remember u....

Headache...

Recently get the title of thesis. Now is the time for me to do the the literature review.Honest to say, it make the thing complicated and challenging.Previously , when get the title, feel confident about that.However, gradually, i felt that it really not an easy research.My thesis is regarding microbial study during cocoa bean fermentation.Get back the title which duel with cocoa = chocolate.ha..
One month for me ...to come out with the methods and procedures..this is part make me feel challenging.U know, the microbial study is so huge and wide.There are numerous ,million and billions of microbe during fermentation..ha..
Lastly, i tell myself, girl..see..u had chosen what you wish to do and like.No return here.Keep move on.The road are there, just sometimes got stones and hole in somewhere .You can encounter and cross by them.Just only the beginning. I believe...ya...sure..

The microbial, fermentation, Yeast,LAB, Acetic bacteria, Fungi...come..i am ready de..

Casual dining vs. eating at home clash

What will get the consumer back in the restaurants spending like before? Create a value, provide convenience, good service and quality food are just the start.

The solution is right in front of our eyes: Authentic recipes with quality ingredients that are not easy to produce at home.

hmm..across this article in The Hot Pot .

Nowadays, cafe , restaurants...are so many in here and there. People today like to eat outside!?...hmm..Maybe when the lifestyle gradually increase or become good, people search something which give them more comfortable lifestyle..Is that any different for a same recipe which cook at home and restaurant..ha. I think there are different.

For a restaurant and cafe, their business point is repeat customers based. For sustain the business, the concept , the design, the menu , the speciality in the cafe are the main marketing parts. People now love nice environment and service. People will pay for that if valuable and reasonable.

That's why the cafe in kepong here..ha..many style..during 8pm onward, you can see the crowd .Some went there for dining; some for drinking and chat. Besides, you can see majority are young generation .ha..

The 'life ' of a cafe bring the customers back .

Natural is obligatory...hmm..think about it..

A breed apart

What bumps one chocolate into the premium ranks while leaving others behind? It boils down to this: "Ingredients must be top quality," says Richard Benson, director of research and development, North America Innovation, Barry Callebaut USA, Chicago.

That means pure vanilla and sweeteners that consumers read as "real."

"A baking chip can have dextrose in it to help stop it from smearing," notes Michelle Frame, director of confectionery R&D, Kerry Ingredients & Flavors, Elk Grove Village, IL. "But that's one of the ingredients that, if someone's looking for a premium bar, they're not going to want to see." Instead, old-fashioned sugar is the most common choice, along with evaporated cane juice, which "can add additional brown notes that blend nicely with chocolate's flavor," she says.

For other flavorings, natural is obligatory. Natural flavors often require higher use levels and have a shorter shelf life, and they have a certain transparency that leaves little cover for any faults in the chocolate itself. "You've got nothing but the cocoa beans for the flavor profile," Frame says. That means the beans had better be good.

New Image...

o.o..yeah..ha.new image for my blog..hmm..this better.
It looks fresh and cheer !
Many ideas about food..hee..will share here..the chocolate..o..^^

Today, back to UKM again..yesterday din sleep well..Actually last few days also insomnia.Anyway, the mind still alert. Sometimes, when too alert, the thing seen not too good.ha
after attending the etiqa BOP, and after making the decision. The mind started to think and think. Is that the time i go in now?Is that the time?hmm...think and think..
After talking to a friend in the phone that nite, i found the answer. Why i will ask such the question..ya..i found that, i am not confident with that..maybe to me..although, i know, the final semester is tough..plus, take up some of the tuition class. Moreover, the etiqa (gradually take the place)..ha.Conducting the class..hmm..ya, it is not easy. The responsibility is there, the efforts to make good care on their subjects is not an easy job. There require many things..hmm..
Maybe, sometimes..i too care about it...when u had make the decision, u care as the hoping is there.The aim is there.ha..ya..honestly. ha..no wonder how, care is care, let bring the care to the action.That my answer. Think too much and din make any efforts...really not valid. So, i will try.i will make the efforts for the class, semester and the etiqa. ( as i found something different from the previous environment).
i believe, i can crop with..i dare to try ..

Today, after conducting my class,went back UKM. Miss UKM...ha..went there for a swim.
All the surrounding very familiar ; the road , the trees still the same. The people , the students not much. Quiet and silent.
A relaxing and enjoying time there. I spent one hour in there.suddenly, something come across my mind. 4 years in UKM..taking food science and management. Last time, when choosing the course, still struggling.ha..now..will come to the final year, final semester. Good, relief..
The song below in the same time, came across my mind. ya. when i was first year student, i was searching the sky in UKM..
Come to final year, everything will be ok . The sky , the road still there.Some how, the people will change, will go.ha..finally, search the others sky.
The final year, final sem..really have to cherish. This time, i will make sure, i won't make myself so tired again..cheer!
Keep move on..the sky is there for me.

该不该搁下重重的壳

寻找到底哪里有蓝天

随着轻轻的风轻轻的飘

历经的伤 都不感觉疼

我要一步一步往上爬

等待阳光静静看着它的脸

小小的天 有大大的梦想

重重的壳裹着轻轻的仰望

我要一步一步往上爬

在最高点乘着叶片往前飞

任风吹干

流过的泪和汗

总有一天我有属于我的天

我坚持的都值得坚持吗
我所相信的就是真的吗
如果我敢追求我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了不要呢
或许吧或许我永远都不会遇见他
或许吧或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于风的那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的那就汹涌吧
属于我们的爱该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢不要呢?
是他吧命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧他原来就在这里啊
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情

我们还要努力

..listen to this song again..ya..is that i want, what i believe is right..if i brave enough, is that will be mine..hmm..
although was tough..maybe..if i din take the step...till now, i am still struggling..it hurts. But now, i relief. Honest to say, it hurts when i knowed...when i realised.What to do...nothing....
Previous case maybe give me the courage, experience to step out.I don't want that kind of feeling again..so..this time..i have to..and i know..no matter what i had done, the relationship will change after that.Rather good or bad, is better for me..as i love and protect myself more.I don't want make myself so tired again..Let it be, let it go..if there really mine, i believe, it will return.
sometimes, the things happen to me and others in once..i know how u feel .That really not the time yet..yesterday, your best friend said..u will always be there until i had found the person...thank for that, i can feel it.thank..
Let the time be...life still move on..me here,keep be pretty, be healthy, be smart...be everything..

6- 7/6/09, that was Saturday and sunday..i had been gone for a relaxing and interesting Melaka trip..ha..decided to go and join the gang as wanna searched for fresh air..fresh mind..

ha..really funny and enjoying..this trip consists of 4 foreign..( ching po, yeow yuin, yy's mum and me ) while 2 local ( jian ren and wan ting ) ..ha..really enjoying with yy's mum..such a nice ,humour and friendly ladies..we talk a lots ..anything..
the Saturday morning, we started the journey around 9am something..we dropped by Nilai and have our 'dian xin ' as breakfast..ha..nice..
after that, we straight toward WaterWorld A Famosa..tats really disappointed me..ha..there seen not much development ,especially the outside parts..although people said the inside part was more interesting..ha..really, for me..lack of some development..have to utilise the land and building...anyway, that did not spoilt my whole day feeling.ha
After took some photos there, we went to Melaka town...we first fetched jian ren at Melaka Mall. unfortunately, we kena saman by polis..ha..
finally , we reached Melaka town..fuyoh..really the main marketing part of Melaka.haha..with the historical , special and nice buildings..there represent the value..suddenly from that, i realise..if u find or sustain something is unique and value inside yourself ..ha..keep hold on the characteristics or talent..ha..that will make you what you are..surprisingly,the market will everlasting..of course, the improvement and development must keep move on..
ha..that the unique of Melaka.
Many places and food we had visited and tried..thank to jian ren and wan ting..really a nice tour guide ...any special things at where..just ask them..sure u will get the answer..
ha..actually , till the nite, my stomach was full enough till can't accept d..ha...the street..the people..the building..nice nice..ha.
the next day..dream box..the most we expected..ha..
finally, when the time reached home..my mind clear..really clear and relief..ha..good.

Here the Beyh Royale....that's interesting...
today just went to MIHAS...Malaysia International Halal Showcase..hee...(decided to go there also ..is the last minute)..ha..finally reached there..and walk around..search many things...that's nice..
the exhibition..quite huge..a lots of company..hmm..better than Maha..honest to say..
three of us..hee..walked and searched..suddenly ,smthing pull my attention...is this..
the Beyh Royale...taste nice...and the packaging...grand...(this marketing..really smart)ha..
with the nice and grand packaging..it really look different...that draw my attention..
It is a time-honoured beverage served as a 'welcome drink ' to guests ..during the reign of sultan Johor..this is a herbal mixed drink....
taste nice,natural sweet....after drink..u will feel the mint ...in yr troat...and the light herba aroma and taste....
the ingredients..plus the packaging...i give a 8 mark for this product...and decided to buy for my mum..as a mother's day gift..
2morrow is the last day in Yu Ai...thank for 2 of you..lee lee and woei ching...really cheer me alots...with both of u..haha..our time in Yu Ai...interesting..
thank to boss...four brother of Mr.leong...four of u are great,really nice.thank for the lunch, domino..and everything...haha....learn a lot from u all...thank for sharing with us...thank and thank..
cherish...i know one day..i will meet u four again..i know that...

find myself...

昨天晚上做了个梦
我走进撒哈拉沙漠
完无一人站在太阳下
摄氏六十六点六度
快要焚化我的眼珠
忽然一场大雨降下来
汗水被那雨水冲走
结束四十天的折磨
荒漠已转变成了绿洲
彩虹下有一棵大树
大树上有一颗苹果
咬下一口我就全明白
可不可以让我再
让我再一次回到那个美丽世界里
找自己
哗啦 啦啦啦啦
天在下雨
哗啦 啦啦啦啦
云在哭泣
哗啦 啦啦啦啦
滴入我的心
不用说我只会胡思乱想
不用跟我说我只会妄想
哗啦 啦啦啦啦
让我去淋雨
我只希望能够高
能够再一次回到那个美丽时光里

找自己

this really nice song..like it..2day just attend the SG award nite, ya..is his recognition..
ya, a lots of people, haha..some of my friends...
hmm..again..i back to that kind of environment..ha
firstly, i felt bored to that kind of surrounding, brought me into it again..but,slowly i realised..i already far away ..and when this song sang by the two guys. suddenly, the feeling came.
ya..that's rite..felt like knowing myself..found myself..
haha..found myself went far away..although i know there is another opportunity in life..but..i found that, me don't subjected to this field..
me wish to go out..maybe to my own field..still searching and doing some 'homework'..
i know, i can ...confidence with myself..i know..there is the way..
yup, girl...keep going..gambateh.!

the way to respone

2day..received the call again..hmm..sorry to say, i din dare to pick it up..my eyes just stared at the name and number..till the end call, i ask myself back, why..dun want pick up? why ?
is their problem or mine problem..how should i respone ..felt sorry .hate this kind of feeling.
Actually , since last year , i remember, the day was my birthday..and that day, was the end..hmm..end..??i gave the letter to him, i can't even speak out , i can't face to face talk to him, really in front of him...i can't be myself.when going back to my block, my tear fall...sorry for everything, i need time to think about it..when u gave me the cake, my tear was out of control..this was the second time,..ha,u saw me cried.really tough for me..u know, till now...others din call ,only him..
guys, thank for teaching me all the things in the company that time..really appreciate.i know, the experience i get, learn sure grow me up .i proud to say, that's really bring up what i am now.do not regret .
i know, u all still hoping me..sorry , the heart already go fall away.maybe one day, the day will come, my six sense tell me that, when we meet, i will relate to u all.
life is keep going, there the way for me to go out...anyway,wish u all get and achieve what u all aim in life.be happy ,be comfortable..be nice.
me here..keep going...gambateh ..

2009

long time din come here ...hmm...felt a bit sorry and 'regret' to myself..
the last history was on 2008..but now..and 2day is 3/4/09.
this few months..hmm..life is up and down..ha..how to say..someones and somethings..hmm..hold me for a moment..
this few months...involved in food company dealing with paste and filling..really a good experiences for me..and a hint for me ..what am i going to fight for in the future.maybe the pass two year , struggled and strive hard for what i want , what i aim and what i target..hmm..plus the environment inside there, really push me forward...and forward..till certain level.hmm , when reach the equilibrium..me drop ..really come to the junction on what i am doing, is it what i want, or just follow others..when come to the junction, down...damn feeling...really kill me..hate that..when one's can't crop with,it really kill me..really..
but finally , the life still on ...keep seeking the directions and align myself ...i know i will..
when searching that, there are many things and people come in my life..hmm..sometimes, really don know how to relate..(relate here maybe is the others way )..
really tough for me..but ...sure i can crop with ..i know..there are chances ..but i am not sure who the person and the things come into me.plus really don understand what they are thinking.maybe me is the person whom 'deactive'..maybe in this time,i am not confidence enough.
whatever ,i know, life still go on...there are the things and oppurtunity in life which i need to seek ..invest myself, be pretty ,be smart ...be everything..hhah...cheer..