find myself...

昨天晚上做了个梦
我走进撒哈拉沙漠
完无一人站在太阳下
摄氏六十六点六度
快要焚化我的眼珠
忽然一场大雨降下来
汗水被那雨水冲走
结束四十天的折磨
荒漠已转变成了绿洲
彩虹下有一棵大树
大树上有一颗苹果
咬下一口我就全明白
可不可以让我再
让我再一次回到那个美丽世界里
找自己
哗啦 啦啦啦啦
天在下雨
哗啦 啦啦啦啦
云在哭泣
哗啦 啦啦啦啦
滴入我的心
不用说我只会胡思乱想
不用跟我说我只会妄想
哗啦 啦啦啦啦
让我去淋雨
我只希望能够高
能够再一次回到那个美丽时光里

找自己

this really nice song..like it..2day just attend the SG award nite, ya..is his recognition..
ya, a lots of people, haha..some of my friends...
hmm..again..i back to that kind of environment..ha
firstly, i felt bored to that kind of surrounding, brought me into it again..but,slowly i realised..i already far away ..and when this song sang by the two guys. suddenly, the feeling came.
ya..that's rite..felt like knowing myself..found myself..
haha..found myself went far away..although i know there is another opportunity in life..but..i found that, me don't subjected to this field..
me wish to go out..maybe to my own field..still searching and doing some 'homework'..
i know, i can ...confidence with myself..i know..there is the way..
yup, girl...keep going..gambateh.!

the way to respone

2day..received the call again..hmm..sorry to say, i din dare to pick it up..my eyes just stared at the name and number..till the end call, i ask myself back, why..dun want pick up? why ?
is their problem or mine problem..how should i respone ..felt sorry .hate this kind of feeling.
Actually , since last year , i remember, the day was my birthday..and that day, was the end..hmm..end..??i gave the letter to him, i can't even speak out , i can't face to face talk to him, really in front of him...i can't be myself.when going back to my block, my tear fall...sorry for everything, i need time to think about it..when u gave me the cake, my tear was out of control..this was the second time,..ha,u saw me cried.really tough for me..u know, till now...others din call ,only him..
guys, thank for teaching me all the things in the company that time..really appreciate.i know, the experience i get, learn sure grow me up .i proud to say, that's really bring up what i am now.do not regret .
i know, u all still hoping me..sorry , the heart already go fall away.maybe one day, the day will come, my six sense tell me that, when we meet, i will relate to u all.
life is keep going, there the way for me to go out...anyway,wish u all get and achieve what u all aim in life.be happy ,be comfortable..be nice.
me here..keep going...gambateh ..

2009

long time din come here ...hmm...felt a bit sorry and 'regret' to myself..
the last history was on 2008..but now..and 2day is 3/4/09.
this few months..hmm..life is up and down..ha..how to say..someones and somethings..hmm..hold me for a moment..
this few months...involved in food company dealing with paste and filling..really a good experiences for me..and a hint for me ..what am i going to fight for in the future.maybe the pass two year , struggled and strive hard for what i want , what i aim and what i target..hmm..plus the environment inside there, really push me forward...and forward..till certain level.hmm , when reach the equilibrium..me drop ..really come to the junction on what i am doing, is it what i want, or just follow others..when come to the junction, down...damn feeling...really kill me..hate that..when one's can't crop with,it really kill me..really..
but finally , the life still on ...keep seeking the directions and align myself ...i know i will..
when searching that, there are many things and people come in my life..hmm..sometimes, really don know how to relate..(relate here maybe is the others way )..
really tough for me..but ...sure i can crop with ..i know..there are chances ..but i am not sure who the person and the things come into me.plus really don understand what they are thinking.maybe me is the person whom 'deactive'..maybe in this time,i am not confidence enough.
whatever ,i know, life still go on...there are the things and oppurtunity in life which i need to seek ..invest myself, be pretty ,be smart ...be everything..hhah...cheer..